Design and Writings by Riz
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� April 2005

I cast all my cares upon you. I lay all of my burdens down at your feet. And anytime I don’t know what to do, I will cast all my cares upon you
-- Kids' Praise

Is it just me or the blogworld has really gone silent the past days? *looks around*

Uh yeah, I guess it’s just me.

This morning, I got home from school all tired and weary. I’d like to think it was just an aftershock of our brain-draining midterms in Ethics this morning, and the fact that I haven't got any sleep since Sunday.. but then, in my heart, I knew well that it’s beyond just that.

You know that feeling? When your heart feels so heavy, you long to just shut your eyes off and cry your way sleep? When life’s challenges coupled with some unexpected stings come around, and all the stress and fears just start to numb you away? When your mind wanders around for hours, and you end up not doing anything that you start to get depressed? When you feel so worn out and helpless, you want to just disappear and run into His embrace?

Funny how children's songs give me an enormous amount of comfort the past weeks. This morning (when I got home from school), I fell asleep singing that song (up there) over and over in my head. Add it up with God’s constant assurance that He’s got everything under control.. I had peace.

Tonight, I’ll be singing that song again. Tonight, I shall sleep knowing that anytime I don’t know what to do, there’s Someone up there, waiting for me to cast all my cares, lay all my burdens, down at His feet.


Hi, Lurkers.
On a lighter note, it has constantly amazed me how many hits this site gets everday, albeit the irregularity of my updates. (Thanks to Statcounter.com, by the way, for providing the statistics.) Site meters, however, aren’t really capable of detecting who drops by. They could only give as much information as where the site visitors are from (this site gets visitors from Asia, and places such as Finland and Australia, among others, would you believe?) , IP Addresses, etcetera.

Anyway, I recently discovered where a number of my lurkers are coming from.

Last week, two girls from my college approached me (on separate occasions) and requested for an interview (with me!?) in relation to their undergraduate thesis. Blogging, apparently, has become a popular topic of research these days (why didn’t I think of this?), that's why. Because the blogger population has recently shot up, researchers have started paying close attention to it.

Thus, I found out, that many of my lurkers are coming from the Communication Research body of UP Diliman, who, I bet are feasting over the happenings in my life (hehe), and at the same time, scrutinizing my site as an object of their studies. Eek. Moreover, people coming up to me (or emailing me even) to whisper “I’ve been reading your blog, Riz” with sheepish grins on their faces are further additions to my growing number of evidences. Great. Just great. Yayness.

Pamy and Hazel, it was a thrill answering your interview questions. I hope I was able to help. God bless on your theses. :)

Now as for me, the word ‘thesis’ is just what I needed to hear. Panic alarm is growing louder and louder by the minute, I feel like I should go and say goodbye to social life for a while.

So before I disappear again into the cruel waves that make studenthood just how it should be, I blog this.. and hopefully, make my lurkers' time worthwhile with an update (finally). Hehe.

Inhale, exhale. Breathe, Riz. Be still and know that He is God. Things are going to get better soon.

Riz Blabbered @ 8:08:00 PM.

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Randomness.
So many thoughts, so many happenings, so little time. Let's do random again. :)

♥ I was caught in a trance for quite a few weeks, but life starts to slow down again. While speeding through the highway is refreshing, slowing down and stopping to pick some flowers and to admire the vastness of the skies is just as thrilling. I’m enjoying every step.

♥ First draft of undergrad thesis due on February 11. So far, I have only interviewed Marc Logan. Yay, I got stuck there again. I have content analysis and reception analysis pa. Pft. Plus, exams, reports, readings, and papers start to pile up too. I’ve got so much to do I end up doing nothing. Hehe. I’m hearing the sirens again. Panic mode.

♥ My one (and so far only) new year’s resolution is in its full swing: Not a single absence in any of my classes, i vowed. Congratulate me, I survived one week. More weeks, and more classes thereof, to survive.

♥ I want this, I want this. :)

♥ Tabulas is going beta! Everyone panicked upon the lost of their customized templates, as an after effect of the major overhaul in its system. I got mine under control, retrieved my last layout (which I launched the same night this lovely template here got launched), and posted something new too. Blog happy and trigger happy at tabulas. :)

♥ Apparently, I’m not the only one bitten by the love bug. Amazing how a simple story can make a difference in someone else’s love story. To you, my friend, may your story be a blessing to another as well.

♥ Life is so full of uncertainties. But tonight, I'm sure of one thing: I'll drift away to sleep with a smile on my face, and my heart floating somewhere in the clouds. Love. Joy. Bliss. Lord, thank you for these.

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.~* With every new song, you fall in love over again. *~.

Sigh. Life is too beautiful. And God.. God is too amazing.

I'm keeping this short tonight. Goodnight everyone. :)

Riz Blabbered @ 2:21:00 AM.

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Starlight starbright, first star I see tonight.. I wish I may, I wish I might, have my wish come true tonight.. -- Nursery Rhyme (Nah, everyone's rhyme. Hehe.)

Had My Wish Come True Tonight.
I can't stop smiling. :) I can't, I can't. :) :) :)

What can I say, this has been the case for the past two months. I've been bitten by the love bug. Or the happy cupid. Or the blue fairy. Whatever you wanna call it. God has been giving me so many many many reasons to be happy lately. I'm all smiles, it's tiring! :)

Now if you love my layout as much as I do, I have one name for you:


You see, it was just one tiny wish I unconsciously blurted out, unexpectant -- I want a new layout, I said. Why, surprise, surprise.. My star heard the silent voice that was me (Silent nga ba? Hehe). Less than 24 hours, I had my wish come true.

Mikks, thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I love it, I love it! *Hugs* I dare not ask how I could ever repay you for this sweetness (Coz no, I won't make you a layout -- you intimidate me!), but I can always give you intangible payments.. I'm willing to negotiate. ;)

Funny coz Jen and I were just conversing about surprises and answered prayers a few hours ago. Something good always comes at the least expected time, we said. Just when you thought your wish wasn't heard, something good falls to place. Just when you stopped expecting, something good happens. Just when you thought you've gotten tired of waiting, something good comes along. God has got so many surprises up His sleeves. And I'd like to think that He loves making us smile, and sprinkling our hearts with joy.. at the least expected time.

Now I say.. don't stop wishing, praying and hoping. Coz you never know how and when your wishes, prayers, and hopes are gona be answered.

Take it from someone who had her wish come true tonight. :)

P.S. Have the sweetest new year, everyone! :D

Riz Blabbered @ 2:25:00 AM.

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