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� April 2005

In the midst of this windy, stormy, chaotic world, I blog. Ehem.

Plugs.
I posted some pics here. Check it out.
And I'm currently addicted to this. Join us. c",)

Inauguration.
It's finally over, the chaotic canvassing and all. Some believes she cheated, some are still harboring their prides and resisting the graceful exit of accepting their defeat. But hey, I believe that God didn't leave us at all. He was there.. in the elections, in the canvassing. And he is still here.. in the inauguration, and in the newly elected government, chaotic as it may seem. Let's just trust that He knows what He's doing and He still is in control. Finally, let me borrow some politician's words (though I'm really not his avid fan), let's give GMA a chance. It won't hurt to cooperate. Nuf said.

Ehem. Deadma na sa transition. Hehe. :)

CommRes.
One CommRes Society orgshirt I saw this morning had this statement designed on it:

"In the beginning, God created the world in six days, and on the seventh day, He rested. Centuries later, some smart ass created BA COMMRES. From then on, NOBODY RESTED."

Ha, ha. Now that's an understatement. Of course you have to be a Communication Research major in the university to really understand. You see, CommRes is a course that only UP offers, and for those who don't know yet, it's a MassComm branch which specializes in research (uhm, hehe, what a a stupid thing to say.) Anyway, we, CommRes people, have this reputation of being the geekiest among the departments (BroadcastComm, Journalism & Film) in the college. It's easy to identify who's CommRes stud and who's not there, really. We are those people who hang out in the library in between and after classes, and the ones you see in the hallways carrying a ton amount of hardbound books. Yep, that's us.

However, contrary to some unreasonable judgements stereotyped on us, we, CommRes majors, do have fun too. I guess what makes us even more different from all the rest, is that we are more appreciative of time and the simple things this life has to offer. Yeah, yeah.. as I said, it takes one to know one. I bet Ms Polaris and Ms Blueberry would have to agree. c",)

Deadlines.
I have tons of deadlines coming up. It's bad enough that while everyone's busy lining up to buy tickets for Spiderman, I, meanwhile, am stuck cramming for a baby thesis due in less than a week. It's even worse when some bad influences in the form of friends (you know who you are guys) are tempting my vulnerable self. Man!

I can feel the goosebumps now. I recently blogged something about feeling like hanging on to the end of a cliff, awaiting the big jump. Well, here goes another one. But hey, one thing this feeling has taught me is that, to borrow Leigh Mcleroy's words, "courage is not the absence of fear, but the simple presence of faith in the face of it.." Right now, I feel like the most courageous person on this side of the earth.

I guess the best thing to do in times like this, really, is to breathe deeply, appreciate the view, and when the moment comes to trust, rock gently forward into the thrilling free-fall of faith.. (Moments for Singles). True enough, in times of sorrow and pressure, the best comfort we can get is knowing that Someone's jumping with us, and backing us up. It may not be a smooth sailing fall, but with Him, there's definitely a safe landing.

And maybe after all that, God will grant me some time to line up for Spiderman too.

Anyone wanna wait til next week to watch Spideeeeyyman wit me?? c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 2:55:00 PM.

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Si Mommy.
This morning, before I left for school, Mom prepared for me a brown goodie bag of Starbucks ensaymada, DewBerry, and my traveller's mug with iced tea in it. Baon ko raw. (aww!)

Isn't that the sweetest thing? c",)

This is it Pare.
Hmm. I knew it would come. And now, I'm not really sure if my excitement is enough to overshadow the fear and pressure (ika nga ng blockmate ko, pear and fressure daw.) of my final remaining subjects in the university.

Note to self: Enough trying to organize yourself girl. It's time to take some serious action. (Ate Jam, remind me please, hehe)

After months of rest, soul-searching, bumhood & some monotonous job experience, the time has come for me take in a deep breath and prepare for the tide that'd come. I feel like hanging on to the end of a cliff, awaiting the big jump. And I didn't really prepare myself on how fast it'd come. It's as if just the other day, I had to terminate the plans I had all figured out, and now, just when I found myself somehow adjusted to a whole new different set-up (night shift, bum days, yadda yadda), I had to come back and pick up where I left off and try to finish the race I left behind.

This means I have to awaken the sleeping (if not dead) brain cells that have almost stopped functioning. And looking back and trying to redevelop the habits and systems I have shelved for quite some time. And memorizing again the statistical formulas, and communication theories I have long forgotten.

Tarits was ranting about her one baby thesis last semester. Rits, if you're reading this, you're one blessed creature. Hehe. I, in one of my major subjects, have five baby theses to submit before the semester ends. And that aint the only subject I have. I have two other subjects with full blown thesis each to go with them as well.

But just as I said, I'm pressured, yes, but excited just the same.

This is it pare. I-karir ang acads, ika nga ng mga henyo sa esbi.

On Jeepney Fares.
The basic jeepney fare rose up to P5.50 at the start of this week. For people like us, who are benificiaries of this pinoy mode of transportation, that's one change that would affect our budgets big time.

But then again..

On behalf of some UP people, let me thank the Philippine Government, and the Supreme Court, for giving us another excuse to walk our way to the next nearby building, instead of taking Ikot Jeeps. Thus, we were given more time to exercise, to think things through, and to spend the afternoons bonding with our friends.

God does have His reasons, even in little details such as jeep fares. And we can only be assured that His reasons are always for our own advantage. Buti na lang. c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 4:05:00 PM.

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Feeling.. uh, Collegiate.. Again.
I missed these. The smell of the trees damp from the rain, the sight of students running to their classes, sitting inside a classroom and taking down notes, and fishballs and isaw with friends on a late afternoon hangout.

I'm now officially, a college student again.
Oh yeah. c",)

Dont you just love pink?
Last Monday was the first day of classes for me. And for my first day, I decided I wanna wear pink. So pink it is. Pink top, pink hair band, pink bag, the works. And I have a pink notebook to go with it too.

Ate Jam was intoxicated, just seeing me. Or so I feel. Hehe. One old guy said I looked like a strawberry.

Hihi, I loved it.

From now on, pink is my color.
Til when? I don't know. We'll see. c",)

Confession.
I watched All My Life with two hopeless romantics (just like me) and I dare not tell their names coz some of you probably know them. I have to protect their identities. Hehe. But hey, I have to give credit to the creators of that film.. it aint bad at all. The cinematography is great, the actors too, and the plot.. well, the plot is ok, though for most parts of it, I thought it wasn't really realistic. Still, I liked it.

And the song. Man, the song was a story in itself. I luuuuved it.

Funny how love songs such as this make us feel tingly all over, even though we don't have anyone special to dedicate it to anyway. But what makes it even more mushy is that it makes us feel hopeful that someday, it will be our song too.

As for now though, I guess it doesn't hurt to sing, wish, and wait. c",)

How Did You Know
Gary Valenciano

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile

My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there's an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

Siiiigh.

There you go. I'm signing off. :)

(Parts of this blog are bits and pieces I cut off from my tabulas account. Hehe. La lang. I just wanted to update this, kayalang medyo tinatamad akong mag-isip. Oh well.c",))

[Ed: Plug. I moved my lyrics blog (formerly last song syndrome, now lyrical blues) here. And I posted something there too.]

Riz Blabbered @ 9:41:00 AM.

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