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� April 2005

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this is how much i love my KC Batch. visit, visit!

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DARKIE!!!! there. i posted your name already. teehee. miss kita! :)

Riz Blabbered @ 4:17:00 PM.

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i've been too sentimental here lately huh.. well, bear with me. life is too great.. =)

the soul would have no rainbow if the eye had no tears...

rainbow.
last Monday, my brother and I, and two church friends, Caleb and Betsjoy, went to the mall to accompany mom buy some groceries. it was raining hard when we left the house. and i have to admit, my spirits matched the gloominess of the day. however, before we reached our destination, the rain stopped... and in the midst of the tall buildings, the MRT, and the almost-dark sky, a rainbow appeared, highlighted with pink fluffy clouds. it had been so long since i last saw a rainbow.. but there it really was, giving color to the dull afternoon sky, seemingly unnoticed by this chaotic and busy world.. but as for me, i noticed it big time.

and as the rainbow colored the horizon, my worries and fears the past days vanished into thin air and was replaced with an assurance of love and greater joy..

God has made the rain stop.. and along with this, He has painted a rainbow in the sky to make it even more beautiful...

literal and figurative of course. c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 9:48:00 AM.

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home alone.
My parents and my two brothers are spending the night at Punta Fuego, a deserted beach resort somewhere in Batangas. I remember the last time we were there.. white sand, clear water, blue sky, fishes swimming around with us, corals and shells everywhere... sigh, it's definitely one place i would want to go back to someday. However, that "someday" is obviously not now. Inasmuch as i wanted to be with them (my family with the Salvio and Mask families, our life long family friends), i had to stay behind because i have so much to do and earlier commitments as well. sigh.

Anyway.. right now, i have the phone line and the computer to myself, and the TV too.. and technically, the whole house as well (the helpers are sleeping already). no noisy brothers bugging me. i know i should be enjoying the solitude but somehow, the silence saddens me like crazy. i start thinking about things i shouldn't be thinking about. so i thought, i should look for other things to do.

Lo and behold i found myself surfing personal sites after the other, and somehow, managed to get into the FridayFive's website. and since i'm in need of entertainment for a while, i decided to humor myself and answer my first FridayFive in my whole history of blogging. so here.

FridayFive:
1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it? yup. Bijoi, she has been my friend since we were in diapers. and uhm.. i know this aint part of the question but there's Jeffrey, someone from my high school that i havent heard from lately but has always been one of the best friends i've ever had (however, i couldnt help but add, some things do change...).

2. Are you still in touch with this person? with Bijoi, yes. we see each other in church every Sunday. with Jeffrey, uh.. no. not much anymore.

3. Do you have a current close friend? tons of them!

4. How did you become friends with this person? through SVCF (the org which i belong to), church, KC, school, more.

5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why? oh yeah. a few of them. why? hmm.. why am i suddenly sleepy?? haha.


i'm tired. i guess i would just have to deal with the blues. and, try to sleep it off.

Riz Blabbered @ 9:48:00 PM.

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Seek first the kingdom of God and ALL things shall be added to you as well.. -- Matthew 6:33

i'm overwhelmed. i realized that during those times i thought He wasn't around, He was really just right there, in silence, comforting me and sending me His message through the pain. and now i understand it even more.. God's message has been consistent, and whatever procedure He has in mind for making me understand His leading, there really should be no room for doubts and questions because one thing for sure.. He knows better than i. and He only wants us to follow His ways.. REGARDLESS OF THE COST.

so after He wipes all the tears and pain away, and after we deny ourselves of our own happiness, (and yes, give up that one thing we treasure most for Him), we can only hold on to His promise of greater joy... a joy which is worth it ALL.

Riz Blabbered @ 10:11:00 AM.

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just in time.
life has been a little busy lately.. God has been giving me overwhelming responsibilities.. and along with this, greater struggles through out the week. Oh yes, I always smile a lot.. but deep within the recesses of my soul, I long to release the tears away. There have been times when i just want to lock myself up in my room and cry it all out.. times when i just feel lost and weak and empty.. times when i get swallowed up by those large whirl of questions and uncertainties.. and even until now i still find this heaviness in my heart that i can't explain.. and yet, i'm still alive, still breathing, still holding on..

this morning, i was reminded once again that i have to keep my focus on things that are more important.. and that i have to cling to the One that never changes.. and once more I was reassured that in times of longing and pain, God, in His silence, keeps His firm hold of my hand, and never lets me go...

I have been trying to deal with these struggles, with the strength that God is continuously giving me.. but now, I have to let the tears fall for a while.. and maybe, as I wipe them dry, I’ll regain my focus and stick with it from then on..

I was on the verge of breaking apart.. but God came in again.. just in time.


Lord, I need your love
I need you by my side..
I know you are a shoulder I can lean on
when im hopeless and in times of desperation
and when I come to reach a point
when I’m about to lose my mind
You were here with me, just in time..

Riz Blabbered @ 2:08:00 PM.

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