First of all, I have a new addiction. ;)

Secondly, Ate Jam celebrated her first blog birthday. (Happy blogday again Ate Jam!) On Friday, August 27, it will be my turn. Bluedfiles is turning thweee years old! Yehey. (This, by the way, marks my 80th blog.. not counting the numerous blogs I made on my old blog which is hidden somewhere in the dark alleys of blogger.)

Moving on, today, I have things to rant. And for a more organized rambling, let me enumerate. (Kailangan ba talagang i-organize ang ramblings?? Hehe)

Five Questions I Want Answered Right Away.
1. What’s the best cure for singaw? Is salt really effective?
2. If you don’t know what you’re good at, does that make you a mediocre?
3. Where do ants go when there’s flood?
4. Why does oversleeping make a person more tired?
5. And again, I ask, when it comes to finding the right person to love, would he be someone who’ll fit all your standards, or will he be someone you’ll just grow to love inspite not having the qualities you want?

Short-term Wishlist.
1. To finish chapter four of my thesis proposal (and revise the first three chapters) way before the Monday deadline.
2. A relatively cheap but nice acoustic guitar.
3. An MP3 of Aiza Siguerra’s version of How Did You Know.
4. To watch Cinderella Story and Princess Diaries (I’m still allowed to be juvenile, am I not? After all, I am still one, hehe.)
5. Shopping (can’t wait na Ate Normi!! Tutuban, here we come!).
6. A nice pair of sandals (ako naman Ate Jam!); & white sneakers.
7. New girbaud wallet.
8. Cellphone overhaul. I wanted a new camera-phone. But after hearing that two of my friends got held up in the past week, I suddenly became contented with my good 2 year-old 8210. I just wish for some fixin, is all. (Calling on my brothers.)
9. Manicure and pedicure. My finger and toenails are screaming for some pampering.
10. Time. I want time.

There.. I’m limiting it to ten items para mas feasible.

Finally, on a more serious tone…

Ten Things I Learned in The Past 24 Hours.
1. Sleeping for 12 hours straight after a whole week of sleepless nights results to headache and depression, as if you’re more drained than you were before you slept. I haven’t quite figured out how’s the best way to cope up with such phenomena.
2. Sometimes, if only to unwind, recollect yourself, and breathe before taking another plunge into a yet another mind-draining, torturous week, it’s ok to miss a class. c”,)
3. Cockroaches are sensitive to light, they only come out at night.
4. Hiding away from your fears will not make them go away.
5. Running away from your past will not make it/him go away too. Instead, occasional conversations with your past is a healthy way to reflect and understand why you are the way you are.
6. No matter how horrible your past is, and how hardheaded you are, it doesn’t matter with God. With Him, every ugly memory, every stubbornness, is turned into something beautiful in His time.
7. Ice cream is not junkfood. While some kids (and adults) think that it is, ice cream is actually a good and healthy alternate for milk, given the right amount (one of my findings in my Quantitative Research on Children’s Concepts of Food and Nutrition. Yuck, I’m turning into a geekoid.)
8. Thanks to Bijoi, I learned from her own reflections that… *bleep* (Censored. Sa mga close kong tao, refer to my tabula. Haha.)
9. I realized that the world is full of monotony. Relationships, jobs (or the lack of it thereof), school works, deadlines, schedules… all are routinary things you have to go through every single day. There will always come a time when you’ll get tired of them. Now in the verge of retiring, I learned that once in a while, it’s ok to detach yourself from your schedule, do the things you love doing, and be reminded of what God’s purpose is for you in this world. And as He refuels your batteries, you’ll realize you have so much reasons to go on.
10. Finally, in whatever situation you’re in, there will always be more lessons to learn.

Funny, after all the ramblings, everything really boils down to one thing. That no matter how shallow your thoughts are, no matter how vain you can be in your wishlist, no matter how many questions you have.. everything goes back to Him and what He’s teaching you. I can just imagine God telling me now, “Nak, relax ka lang, I have everything under control. Sobrang mahal kita, at kung kailangan kitang batukan, paiyakin, at i-drain to prove that, I'll do whatever.”

Ok. Opo, Lord. Sabi niyo eh. I trust. I believe.

I’m reminded again of the book, Moments for Singles, and this prayer I copied from it (which is now pasted up front my date book).

“Lord, as I make my list and set my schedule, keep me mindful of the fact that every moment is yours. You have the right to shaken up my day in whatever seems right to you. There will always be budgets and meetings, presentations and deadlines.. But when time is no more, it will only be You, and Yours..”

Today, this is my prayer. I hope this becomes your prayer too.

Riz Blabbered @ 5:20:00 PM.