Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

Resignation Sentiments.
Holy Week passed, and for a while there, I had a taste of summer. Our church had it's annual Family Camp (last Thursday to Saturday), at a resort in Laguna. I missed the camp's first day since I had to go to work, but it was still good enough.

There are just too much to do this summer but I feel like being held back because of work. Many times this week, I thought of resigning real soon.. like, tomorrow na, pede? (hehe) Anyway, I started typing out my resignation letter just a few minutes ago, and cheesy as it may sound, I actually feel kind of sentimental about this whole thing. I have to admit, many times I get tired of sitting at my work station, doing the same things over and over again every night, and wishing I was somewhere else instead. But everytime I get to think of the simple things that give me joy at work, I know they're all worth it..

Like this morning, I was sick with cough and fever. There were my team mates, Portia, Trish, and Rowena, checking me up every once in a while to see if I was getting any better. There was Tammy who offered me his jacket so that I'd feel warm, Lei, who offered to get me milk, and Mark who carried my stuff as we head down the building after the shift, and later texted me, "Ingat ikaw, pahinga k.." (aww.. ang mushy ko. sheesh). Man, I've only spent less than 3 months with these people, yet, I know, it would be hard to let them go. But yeah, life is like that eh? People come in and out of your life, sometimes staying just for a short period of time, leaving you with just a slight trace of their existence. And at the end of it, you know that in that little time, they have served their purpose in your life.

Right. I should save these sentiments later, huh. I'll be working at most, 30 more days, anyway.

Exposed.
I have been keeping a journal for as long as I can remember. All these years, my journal has been my crying grounds, the keeper of my deepest thoughts and secrets, my daily struggles and stuff I intend to keep between myself and God.

Well guess what? Somebody read my journal. Someone who shouldn't have read it in the first place. Someone I least expected to have his hands on it. And just with a blink, all the things I've gone through the past months were exposed, making it hard for me to trust anyone anymore.

What could be God's reason? I still can't quite figure out. But I'm sure, there is.

InLove.
Finally, this morning, luuuv came knocking on my heart again. I was watching ALIAS replays, and there he was, in his dark suit and serious smile, my ultimate crush, Michael Vartan. Have you seen him play hockey? Man, he is soooo *bleeep*. There. No words to describe him. Ang pogeee.

Anyway, the third season of Alias is going to be aired at Studio 23 starting tonight at 9pm. I'm dying to read all the Season 3 cheats here but as for the mean time, I can still control myself.

I guess that will be the highlight of my week for now. c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 5:37:00 PM.

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