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� April 2005

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So there.

Stressed.
In church, we got a new catch phrase, courtesy of our dear friend, Hobbes. Last Sunday, during the worship service, he testified in the midst of the church congregation from out of the blue (he volunteered right there), starting his speech with something like, "Please bear with me. Everytime I don't say what's on my mind, nase-stress ako. Now, I have to speak up kasi po kung hindi, mase-stress po talaga ako.."

Since then, the word, stress, is our favorite word. It was widely used during our youth's PDL discussion group, and even after that.

"O, magsasalita daw si Hobbes ulit, nastress na naman yata siya eh."
"Talagang stress na stress ka ah! Kanina ka pa salita ng salita eh!"
"Ano ba.. tama na! Nalalabas mo nga stress mo, kami naman ang nase-stress sayo!"
"Pede ako naman maglabas ng stress?"

Uh, stuff like that.

I was talking with Hobbes right after the discussion group, and he seemed to be so.. uh, stress-free. He kept on telling me how good it feels to finally get out of his shell and voice his thoughts out. (He is our youth president yet he was always one of those silent types.) I'm really happy for him.

The thing is, now that I think about it, I envy Hobbes. How I wish I could be more open about how I feel, about my thoughts, and my fears. I wish I could just say out what's on my mind, without bothering much about what others might think of me. I guess that's one thing we, sanguines, have. While we are sometimes transparent about what we feel, most of the time we try to hide behind a cheerful mask to cover up what's keeping us down.

Why this blog? Go figure.

My song for the meantime. Yeah.. again. (Exerpt only)
Letting Go by Gary Valenciano.

Why be afraid, For God knows what you're feeling
But even He can't do a thing, If He sees the heart's not willing
And so we ask what's going on, We want what's right and still do wrong
When hard may seem the task, One step is all He asks of you..

Letting go to know the truth is not so hard to do
It's the heart that's got the will to open up for Him to fill
And trusting and believing Him is all we've got to do
It's just the heart that's got to move
For Him to show His love that's been there, Even when we never cared
Take hold of His hand.. Let go and you'll understand.

I guess by now you'd realize you can't be on your own
And all your cares, And all your burdens
Should be cast upon His throne
Letting go, Just let go, Letting go
Let go and you'll understand
Just let go and you'll understand...

Nuf said.

On a Lighter Note..
I decided not to end this blog that way. Hehe. Tomorrow night, i'll be sleeping over (after a possible swimming session in the afternoon) with my girlfriends from church -- Jen, Bijoi, Marian, Normi, Mae, and Ate Vi. Girl bonding thing, yanoe. Alas, something to be excited about. I'm sure it will again be a long monotonous night at work, but hey, God always gives us something to look forward to after it all. Man, I need the break. I can't wait. See Ya ladies! c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 5:34:00 PM.

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