Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

Just a Quickie.
One whole week without internet access. I have little time left here before Bourne Identity starts up on HBO but I didn't want not to blog for I might not have a chance to go online again til next week.

I have 15 days left before my resignation becomes effective. The countdown starts.

Consider Jesus.
It hit me again this morning at church -- God's amazing love, and that unspeakable peace you can have in His presence, unworthy as we are. It's always good to be in church, don't you think? Parang, you feel like you're in a sanctuary where every thorn is removed, every load is lifted out your back, and no bad forces can harm you. Na sometimes, when you feel like you just can't tell anyone that you're hurting inside, you know that the best remedy is to go to that place where you can just close your eyes and run back to Jesus' outstretched arms and you know, you just know, that everything will be alright.

We were singing "For This Cause" during Praise and Worship knina, and underneath my sunglasses, tears won't just stop to fall. I thought about how much I failed to make Him smile the past weeks, about my compromises, my disobediences, and I thought about how much He loves me inspite of.. And while we sang those lines, "All I want is, all I want is You, Jesus.." over and over again, I just lost it, and once again I was reminded that this is what life is all about. He is what life is all about. That I may experience happiness in so many things in life but beyond all the happiness this world can offer, is an unending joy that only He can give, a longing and thirst that only He can satisfy.

I didn't want the morning to end. I was scared to step out of the confines of my sanctuary and face all the temptations and trials of the world again. Sabi ko kay Lord, can I just stay here so I won't have to be tempted and tried out there anymore? But then, I felt His hand leading me gently out of the Worship Hall, out into the world once more, assuring me that I can have my sanctuary anywhere I go, in Him. He is, after all, my sanctuary.

Now there are two words He left me with today. When I feel like giving up, when I feel weak to my knees, when I have to make little choices in life, and when I just feel lost.. I should just remember these two words: Consider Jesus.

Consider Jesus. Consider Jesus. Consider Jesus. Fix my thoughts on Him and everything will be alright.

For the first time in my life, I was scared to leave the church.. but hey, I got myself out. For I know, I was reminded, that every battle I'm going to face, He has already won.. back there on the cross.

So thank you, Lord.

Riz Blabbered @ 8:25:00 PM.

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