Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

Flower in the Rain.
You know how I've always admitted that I'm such a crybaby? I cry a lot. I feel happy, I cry. I'm overwhelmed, I cry. I fight with my brothers, I cry. I am confronted by someone, I cry. I see a mushy movie, I cry. I feel distressed, I cry. I hear a touching (or rebuking) sermon in church, I cry. For some reasons, letting my emotions out through my tear glands has always been a good therapy for me.

Yesterday night, in the middle of making phone calls at work, a tear suddenly rolled down my cheek. A few seconds after, I found myself in a cubicle at the ladies' room, letting the rest of the tears fall. If you know me well, you know what my reasons were.

Then I was reminded of this song...

      You are the one, there's no one else
      Who lifts me up and gives me water from the well.
      But there's a hole that seems to drain it all away.
      And once again I'm left in fear and doubt
      When all my strength is crying out.

      The evil wind, it blows a storm to rock my world
      Just when I think I'm safe and warm.
      I'm led astray far too easily.
      It's always hard for me to say I'm wrong,
      Until I know I can't go on.

I have come to the end of my rope. What I regret now, is the realization that I have allowed myself to come to this point, despite knowing that I would regret this in the end.

      So, here I am again
      Willing to be opened up and broken
      like a flower in the rain.
      Tell me what have I to do to die and then be raised,
      To reach beyond the pain like a flower in the rain..

A lot of my friends tell me that working in a call center may cause me all kinds of temptations and compromises. I thought so too. But after three weeks, I have proven that God can penetrate even the hard walls and the worldly shield surrounding a place as such. And more importantly, He goes way beyond to reach out and to break the walls surrounding a sinner's heart.

In short, haay.. ang kulit talaga ni Lord. Kahit pasaway ka, He just won't stop loving you.

      Lord, You have searched me and know
      When I sleep and when I rise.
      You're familiar with all my ways.
      Even the darkness will shine
      Like the day when You look into my heart.

      So, here I am again
      Willing to be opened up and broken
      like a flower in the rain.
      Tell me what have I to do to die and then be raised,
      To reach beyond the pain like a flower in the rain..
When you come to think of His stubborness, of His undying love, words just won't be enough to thank Him. With that in mind, I wiped my tears away, walked back to my work station, and got through the whole shift with a lighter load on my back. c",)

[Ed.] marian, the song, Flower in the Rain, is from Jaci Velasquez's first album, Heavenly Places. She's the same singer who sang I Promise.. alam mo yun, yung, like, all-time favorite LCM song ng IVCF?? :)

Riz Blabbered @ 3:25:00 PM.

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