Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

finally, i update.
the Christmas layout is gone. i'm back to bummin around again, but just for the meantime. after i got through my rakets, i prolly gona make myself a new layout. watch out for it. ;) (by the way, i'm still a bum. that call center company which accepted my application, hasn't called yet for my training schedule. arrg. what's keeping them so long??)

our PC is deteriorating. and so is my internet addiction. i guess it does help that our computer is on a haywire (or what was it, spyware?), that i have no choice but keep my hands away from it or it'll end up on the ground, crashed to pieces (nang dahil sa gigil). man, if only i have enough dough to splurge on a new PC.. or at least, faster/better components. oh well.

on january 22.
..i'll be celebrating my first birthday here at daydreemz dot com. it's been a year since rawles adopted me to this family. i never really expected that someone would be nice enough to host an amateur-webdesigner-wannabe a space in this world wide web. i still remember my layout then.. uh, pathetic! but she still gave me a chance. so thanks, rawles. much gratitude to you, always. august 27 (of last year), by the way, marked my 2nd year of being a blogger. of course, my past life is hidden somewhere in the dark shadows of blogspot, which i dare not broadcast anymore. harhar. now, everybody seems to be into this blogging thing, which is really great. it's impressive that our generation now, is so into voicing out their thoughts publicly, knowing that somewhere across the world, someone's life would be touched, in one way or another.

uhm, where was i? oh yeah.. greet me on the 22nd. i'm gona paaaarteeeh! c",)

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the great pretender.
someone once told me i am the great pretender. i didn't want to accept the thought that time. yet, somehow, i feel that the phrase does describe how i am right now. they think i'm ok, but i'm not. they think i'm all smiles, but deep inside i cry. they think i'm all happy, but deep inside i feel so empty.

i'm lost. but i know that soon, i'll have to find my way back home.. again.

Riz Blabbered @ 11:42:00 AM.

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