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� April 2005

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And I just made myself a taglish blog na rin. Uso ata eh. :)

Now I rant.

Random Thoughts on Election Period.
One of the worst feelings is losing your G-tech (that Pilot sign pen you can get for a relatively expensive price of P62.00 at National Bookstore), especially for people like me who can't write a thing without it. Anyone here who can relate to what I'm saying, please raise your hand. I lost my G-tech when I went out to vote yesterday. I feel so freakin' bad. All for the love of the country. Ha, ha. ;)

I am, finally, a full-pledged Filipino voter. It wasn't really an ecstaticly overwhelming experience.. but it was definitely a big change for me -- a definable reminder that I am, indeed, starting to grow of age. I didn't have problems looking for my precint, by the way, which is a good thing. It didn't take an hour to fall in line and cast our votes as well. At least, no traumas on my first time. What remains to be annoying in practicing one's voting right, as I have experienced, is, ta-da, this ugly indelible ink stuck on my index nail, that just won't go off. Now aren't you thankful elections come only once in a long while? ;)

Aright, seriously now. Who did I vote for, you may ask? I wasn't decided yet until the morning of the election day. My dad and I seriously debated over it a few days ago, but after much praying, God revealed to me what I needed to hear. I shouldn't let my fears get in the way of my decisions. It's not enough reason to vote for one candidate in order to prevent the other candidate from winning. It's not also enough reason to vote for that candidate who's most likely to win so as not to waste my vote. Despite the many pressures around (my dad included, hehe) I have decided to vote for the one who's most unlikely to be voted for. That candidate who's got a little chance of winning. I was reminded, that win or lose, God ordains who's going to lead this country for the next six years. And whether or not my candidate wins, God's will will be God's will. Whoever wins, He ordains. That's assurance enough for me.

So sino nga? Ah.. bale, si FPJ nga pala. Hehe.

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Now while people are enjoying the national holiday, we, meanwhile, as usual, had to go to work. And let me tell you, it wasn't easy dragging my feet to work on a rainy night when everybody else looked forward to resting up after a long election day. It wasn't easy calling after American clients and having them hang up on you when all you could think of was spending the cold summer night with a good book, a glass of iced tea, and the sound of the raindrops through your ears. Man, it was a hard job to do. Not even the double pay was worth the torture. (Uh, but then again, on the second thought.. hehe..)

One more torturous week like this and I'm off this call center for good. I'm not exactly excited to leave behind this life I lived for the past three months. I'm excited to catch up on the remaining days of summer, and leave the monotony of this industry I'm in, yes. And yet, leaving my friends, my family for the past three months, is going to be an even more torturous thing. *sigh* Four days left.

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Lastly, this is a text from a really close friend. In the middle of phone calls at work this morning, I stopped midtrack and felt myself punched right into my nose. I'll leave my friend nameless. But here goes her text: "Dude, di ba sabi ko sayo, I always cry at night asking God when I will be enough? Tonyt, He aswered me with this question.. "How bout you, *name here*, when will I be enough?"

So there goes my ultimate rebuke for the month. I've always found myself wanting for a lot of things, discontented. And there goes God, asking us.. "How about you, my child, when will I be enough?"

Ouch. So now, with my knee bruised, I picked myself up and decided to start trying again.

Riz Blabbered @ 8:05:00 AM.

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