Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

The Last on the 'Date' Thing.
Whew. Soooo many people are reacting to that "date" thing. I'm not sure if I should be surprised or what. Or should I react back? For the last time, (why do I feel like some people would think I'm being defensive here? hehe) it was just one friendly date my friend set me up with because she's doing me a friendly favor, and the guy turned out to become one of my good friends too. He's not doing any 'next move' at all, as far as I know, and I wouldn't let him either because as for now, that's something I wouldn't want to get myself into. And why would I be in a 'date' if that's something I didn't want myself to get into, you may ask? Like I said, it was set-up, and I did it for a favor. That's all there was to it. Case close? No more 'yihee, date!' reactions please? Hehe. Peace guys. c",)

More Rants.
I got home from work this morning, kinda depressed because while my team mates are on their way to Puerto Gallera right this minute, I, on the other hand, am here, wishing I was there. I feel like a highschooler. I wanted so badly to go, but for some reasons, I wasn't allowed to. So as I was saying, I went home, positioned myself in front of the TV, and after a while, fell asleep over this Hearts of Atlantis DVD. I woke up 3 hours later, and here I am now, ranting my heart out.

I hate feeling different. Sometimes, I feel as if I've been missing out on a lot in this world because some people are trying to protect me from the harms of it. It's insulting at times, as if I don't have my own discretion on things, and I don't have my own standards of what's good for me and what's not. Aryt, the concern is really overwhelming, and it does help sometimes. But still, don't you think it's more convincing if we experience things and learn from it our own way? Now, eventually, when you try to be honest about this, about what you feel, and you try to reason out, you end up hurting the other person and all of a sudden you feel guilty about feeling the way you felt. And at the end of it, the situation wasn't changed and you're still treated like a little kid. Ok, maybe I am still a kid, because I'm really having a hard time understanding it all. You get it? Ok, this is one big jumble of rants. I'm not sure if anyone understands me anymore.

Right now, I'm one confused brat. But yes, ok, maybe, to some extent, I do understand why it had to be like this. Haha, confused nga ako. Ano ba.

Moving on..
I have Passion of the Christ premier tickets for the 23rd playdate. Wanna join us? The movie has hoarded thousands of comments, credits, and reviews (both negative and positive). I have to admit, it's getting more and more interesting. I can't wait! At least I have other things to look forward to.

Another week has passed, I almost didn't notice it. There are times when you become too tired of the monotony of each day, that you want to fastforward the hours, the days, the years. But there are times when you just want to freeze the moment right where it is, and make that certain moment last as long as you want. Right now, I feel the former. Next week, maybe, that would have to change as well.

Arg, enough ranting. Thanks for the comments, everyone. And for the hugs as well.. I got 184 now. If I only know who you guys are. Do yourselves a favor (hehe), leave a comment and I'm gona hug you back. c",)

Plugs. in order of appearance, er, comments. :)
brokensaint heero nyeneks emily wulfgar noni trisha ayeza slitherdude marian jampot linmer

Have a great weekend everyone! c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 11:48:00 AM.

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