Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

Yes, I'm back. It's sooo easy to figure out why. Hehe.

Once there was a girl who became a woman by being a bum.
Last Tuesday, I finished filing for my Leave of Absence from the university. It was supposed to be an easy task of finding people to sign in your clearance, lining up to pay, and submitting your papers. UP students do it all the time. And they usually do it in a breeze. But me, I had to come back twice, and be delayed several times. (Is it my fault if the college dean had an executive meeting the day I was about to get his signature?) Not once, not twice, but countless times, I asked a silent question to God why I had to go through things the hard way. But aright, I so believe that He has a purpose for all these delays. I may not exactly know what, yes.. but He knows. And that’s one thing that's keeping me afloat. It’s all up to the Boss.

So this is what happens when you're a bum. (haha, I’m loving it na, really!) You wake up each morning not knowing how you gona spend your day. You click on your TV, or the computer even before you brush your teeth. All day round you find yourself thinking a lot. You become too observant of the things that happen in your life and you think all day why they had to happen that way. You find reasons even for the littlest things like jeepneys passing by, and falling in line for almost two hours. You suddenly become interested about other people's jobs, and you become aware of the different call centers in Metro Manila. Your try to keep your room neat, a rumple in the bedcovers freaks you out. You start putting your website back up after closing it down and creating such a dramatic exit (haha!) because you dont have anything to do with your time. You memorize all the lines from commercials in TV, and you start watching Bida si Mister, Bida si Misis too. The list goes on.

Oh by the way, I have a new crushie. Paolo Valenciano. Man, he is soooo cute. Great voice too. And he's a Christian, 10,000 points. Another proof that all the attractive guys are either taken, or celebrities. Ok, ok, I can hear some people objecting, hehe.. not ALL then. Yuck, I am such a kiddo! Paolo’s what, 17? And the last time I had a crush like this was about three years ago. Eek. I bet my cousin is laughing right this moment. (Don’t worry about me jen, I’m still sane.)

There you go. If you can see me now, you'd probably see the word BUM written all over my face. But hey, I know that being like this for a while is something I'll miss someday. So I'm enjoying it while it lasts. Hehe.

Now, WELCOME ME BACK. c",)

Riz Blabbered @ 8:08:00 AM.

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