Design and Writings by Riz
Bluedfiles Version 17
� April 2005

bothered.
i've been thinking so much since the day i turned 20.. (uhuh come to think of it, i've been thinking a lot my whole life, being the melacholic that i am. riiight..). it's just that, i feel as if the very thing i avoided has happened after all.. and it bothers me so much, and yet, i know i really shouldn't be... but if i really shouldn't be bothered.. then why am i? =(

my prayer.
Dear Lord, You know my heart and You know my deepest desires.. and i'm really thankful that after such a long time, You've allowed me to feel this kind of love again... but i love you more Lord.. and if these feelings are not from You, please take them away.. i know you have so much in store for me, so much responsibilities for me to do.. and i would be so willing to give him up... for You... and for myself... and for him as well... if this is something You have in Your plans, then i am sooo thankful for this... pero if this is some sort of a test, then give me wisdom and discernment... coz i sure want to pass this test for You... i can't do this alone po.. i would really need Your help...

Riz Blabbered @ 1:40:00 PM.

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